This post is dedicated to the magnificent
tree roots that beautifully resist the boundaries set for them by our
civilization. Tree roots reclaiming their space from concrete. Source: culturainquieta
Hacktivist collective Anonymous has threatened to take down 2016 presidential hopeful Donald Trump, this time declaring “total war” on the GOP frontrunner. Anonymous’ war plan against Trump includes dismantling the candidate’s online presence and digging for dirt on the business tycoon in an attempt to destroy his brand. And you don’t need to be a hacker to participate.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve exhausted myself working two jobs. I had to temporarily drop out of school. I don’t know where we can afford to live in the Bay Area. It’s so expensive. No one wants pets. We will have an eviction on our record. No one here wants us.
If we move out of state where will we go?
I won’t have a job.
I don’t know how we’ll afford moving costs.
Mom still has pneumonia.
I can’t bear parting with my cats.
I don’t know what to do anymore.
I did everything right and worked my ass off and took care of family and now it amounts to nothing.
And we will be homeless.
I can’t remember the last time I woke up and wasn’t stressed and afraid.
I just don’t know how to do this anymore.
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sometimes you say or do bad things while you’re in an awful mental place. sometimes you say things that are rude or uncalled for or manipulative. and i’m not going to hold that against you. mental illness is hard, and no one is perfect. but once you’re through that episode, you need to take steps to make amends. you need to apologize.
“i couldn’t help it, i was having a bad episode” is a justification, not an apology.
“i’m so fucking sorry, i fucked up, i don’t deserve to live, i should stop talking to anyone ever, i should die” is a second breakdown and a guilt trip. it is not an apology.
when you apologize, the focus should be on the person you hurt. “i’m sorry. i did something that was hurtful to you. even if i was having a rough time, you didn’t deserve to hear that,” is a better apology. if it was a small thing, you can leave it at that.
if you caused significant distress to the other person, this is a good time to talk about how you can minimize damage in the future. and again, even if it is tempting to say you should self-isolate and/or die, that is not a helpful suggestion. it will result in the person you’re talking to trying to talk you out of doing that, which makes your guilt the focus of the conversation instead of their hurt.
you deserve friendship, and you deserve support. but a supportive friend is not an emotional punching bag, and mental illness does not absolve you of responsibility for your actions. what you say during a mental breakdown doesn’t define you. how you deal with the aftermath though, says a lot.
If you’re scrolling through tumblr trying to distract yourself from something you don’t want to think about or you’re looking for a sign that everything will be okay, this is it. So, breathe. Relax into this moment. You’re alive & that’s all that matters.
